The Introverted Side of J.E. Skye ​

I am an introvert, and there is nothing wrong with that in my mind.

I have talked a lot on subjects that pertain to my mental illness since creating this blog, but one subject that I have wanted to talk about is the fact that I am an introvert. I don’t consider this part of me, a part of my mental illness.

An introvert is defined as someone who is energized by being alone. To some, an introvert is someone who spends time in quiet places like the library or a quiet park. While that is true, for me I revel in being in a crowded coffee shop with my headphones on, music blaring, and my fingers tapping away on laptop’s keyboard. For me, I am defined by being alone in a crowd or in my own personal safe spaces.

My day is usually spent in my own company in spaces that I believe help me be as creative as possible. It is the simple things in life that make me an introvert. It takes me a long time to find a public place that will be safe for me to be myself, so these places are very special to me. My social anxiety plays a very key role why I prefer to be an introvert. Being alone is something I am good at, but it has ruined most friendships and relationships in my life.

One of the points of this blog is to analyze my life and put things into perspective. There are so many different types of introverts in the world. While I find solace in public indoor places like coffee shops, others seek solace in nature. The point that I am trying to make here is that, over the years, I have used the fact that I am an introverted-bipolar-socially-anxious-insomniac guy as a shield in which life mostly passes me by.

At my core, this is okay because of who I am as a person. I really feel reenergized when I am reading or writing in a place that I feel safe alone. But, there is a big part of me that misses exploring the real world outside my safe place. I would like to find more places where the feeling of solitude is amazing—but in nature.

I live in a great place in Salinas, California. I am ten minutes or less from the ocean, surrounded by mountains, and within thirty minutes away from some of the greatest redwood trees in the Big Sur area.  There was a time in my life where weekly I would go to the beach and just walk. I had my favorite places that were quiet on the beach and I could just listen to the water.

Somewhere between being diagnosed with Bipolar one, social anxiety, and insomnia I lost the will to explore outside my safe places. One of the safest places where I feel energized is in my own room, and it always is my fallback spot. But I know I am capable of more than my special safe places, and I will always be energized by these places.

As I work towards my writing goals of finishing my memoir, selling my screenplay Memory of Shane, and writing the novel version over the coming months, I want to make a small goal to leave my house for things other than school or writing. I may write a poem in nature or in new places I have explored, but it will be because I found somewhere new to be the introvert I am.

J.E. Skye

Photo Credit: Thomas Kelley

16 Replies to “The Introverted Side of J.E. Skye ​”

  1. I try to get out into nature almost every day. While there I do mindfulness to clear my mind and to be truly in the moment. I have to stop and consciously think about the nature otherwise I miss it because of my anxiety.

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  2. Because my anxiety problems don’t have anything to do with being in social settings, I can go almost any place and just be the observer. Obviously, as an introvert, I do love my solitude but I handle social gathering all right. Have you ever tried just being an observer? It can be very entertaining.

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    1. I sometimes sit at a coffee shop and listen to people’s conversations. Not to be pest, but it really helps writing dialogue for my writing. I have tried to be an observer outside of that and it always raises my anxiety. I really like being alone in my own little space.

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  3. The first step is the hardest, and you’re already there! Recognizing and accepting the parts of yourself that you’d like to improve upon is no easy feat, so give yourself credit in that one win already. I hope you’re able to get out and about more, thanks for sharing and for following, I love reading others’ words and feeling less alone. Best of luck to you!

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  4. I love this post and your blog. My sister is an introvert with social anxiety and I struggle to understand her. I love being around people and being alone is monotonous and draining. I always want her to go places with me and she literally is just tired. Reading through your post really gave me a lot of insight. Love it.

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    1. I’m glad my posts can be helpful. It is the goal of my writing to post topics such as me being an introvert so people can better understand. Thank you for your kind words.

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  5. What if you try a place that is busy with tourists, or just people walking their dogs, A local park for instance, just to start small.
    Great Blog by the way, its great to have a place to express our feelings and not be judged.

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    1. I like the idea of a park. Open space and people but with an opportunity to just sit and relax without letting my social anxiety take over. Its a great idea thanks for sharing.

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  6. And as an introvert, you get weird questions from other people. This is especially the case when you struggle from some sort of mental illness. Introversion is often misinterpreted as other things. I touched a bit on being antisocial and on other common questions in my post for depression. https://l.facebook.com/l.php?u=https%3A%2F%2Fmentalillnesspsychology.wordpress.com%2F2017%2F11%2F16%2Fquestions-about-depression%2F&h=ATNMg3e7S6uxtF4R-Br9WwSg0-DD3fTgmVcKXuHVHKBEeixsP1x8A5FGSRkzmdKOi4T1hJ8RQJ1JHxK_nZDbNoWh77ryn5yO0qDUbYryG-ffhkLj9QhpObNpwMrSzzROR0uZw-jjSZKxG1KwnA&s=1&enc=AZMmu0b_X4ETMWecdIHqTn7cRfVYd2uRMYs7J0s8RWWeJJohzBLw_L9PKfeGmm9V_PHteAGlEpv2zoJFz50qLfHyvkKaJPiOtfHbZ3USfI7pfg

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    1. Thank you for sharing this, I hate the weird questions as well but I think I am more comfortable with introverted side now than I have in the past. Great blog post from the link. I look forward to seeing more from you.

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