I haven’t updated much lately about my social anxiety. It has been my most talked subject and yet I am still working towards resolutions. Since my anxiety has been a lot higher over the last month and a half, with it decreasing the past week, my therapist thought it best to postpone tackling my social anxiety until the new year, and I actually concurred with her idea.
It still doesn’t mean its not on my mind today.
it makes sense. I chronicled in my blog post Changes how effective my new doses of Ativan and Seroquel are making it easier to deal with my anxiety at night, but it doesn’t change the fact that I am leaving my house less and less over the past few weeks. Its Thursday and it has been a week since I have made the trip outside my house to my favorite coffee shop. Its a combination of stress and a couple of bad days, but I long to get back on track.
It happens that way a lot with my the seasonal component of my Bipolar One diagnosis, but I am sensing a trend that my social anxiety also increases during this time of year.
I am just getting to a good enough place where I feel my anxiety isn’t controlling my every second, and there have been extenuating circumstances yesterday that made any plans yesterday outside the comfort of my house even a little possible.
Still, there were days this past week where I made the choice to stay in because, as much as my anxiety has decreased, it is still an issue to be outside my house this winter. The last time out I only lasted about an hour before having to go back home. I also have had my issues with Car Anxiety. During the summer and late fall, I was at my favorite coffee shop four days out of my week.
Social anxiety and being out there in the world is something that is still an issue for me, but it is also something I will work on in 2018. That could mean immersing myself in situations that would cause my social anxiety to spiral, like going to see a movie. It makes me sad to think that I couldn’t watch the latest Star Wars movie because a crowded theater is a trigger for me.
One thing I plan on trying next year is rove to different coffee shops. I think it could be effective for me. I love writing in coffee shops, anyone who follows my blog knows how much time I love to spend in my favorite place writing and drinking my favorite coffee drink.
But I have used that as an excuse to now go outside my comfort zone. How can I work on the triggers of my social anxiety if I never actually do anything outside my comfort zone? Maybe I can see a movie with a group of friends that understands my anxiety and can help me through it.
I want to change in the coming year. I have learned so much sharing my story and to be honest I need to take that next step when it comes to my mental health. I could go to the beach. I used to love the beach and its ten minutes away. I will, in 2018, fight once and for all against my anxiety. I am excited about the new year.
So I wanted to ask my fellow bloggers this, what are some things that help with your social anxiety? Any suggestions on how I can go out into the world to better understand my triggers?
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