I am in a good mood today so I wanted to talk about a positive direction topic.
I have been focused so much lately on my social anxiety. Laser focused. I was looking in my log where I track my anxiety and depression and a realization came over me today.
My depression is actually under control at this moment. When did that happen?
It’s a strange feeling. It is an amazing feat. When I started early November my anxiety and depression were both spiraling. I knew it was inevitable. Every year my depression spirals until January or February before I am able to grab control again. I feel a trend in the positive direction with my depression for the first time since I can remember maybe as a teen?
It feels good. Sure I need to continue to work on my depression along with my anxiety, but if I can continue to fight my depression into the New Year, it might be good for me to actually get through my depression and learn what is helping me. I certainly write more when I am not depressed. I usually wait until late spring before I refocus my depression. It has always been, in my mind, something that is out of control during the winter time. Maybe things are trending in a good direction.
So I wanted to try to analyze what I am doing the past month or so. I have added meditation in both morning and night. It helps that I found a really good app on my phone that helps me get through my daily meditation with reminders and help. Mindfulness breathing has really changed my life. I have been trying to take walks in the morning and if I can’t, I would stand in the sun to try and soak up enough of the sun to feel better.
Sunshine can do wonders.
I think the major thing is my writing here on my blog and my memoir. In past years, I wrote but not at this level and certainly not every day. It’s amazing what writing can do for someone like me. It’s the positive direction that I need, the fact that I am working on different projects at the moment helps. In the past, I would just do the bare minimum each day and there were so many lost days during the winter time just last year.
Things are changing. in my life. Change is always good for the soul. So, I wanted to share this with my fellow mental health bloggers. I am seeing light at the end of the tunnel when it comes to my depression. Sure I will have bad days along the way but it comes with the diagnosis.
I think I am out of the bad depression cycle I was in that started in November, and if it is true, it’s the shortest one I have had in years. I will keep you posted.
I can’t remember the last time I was this happy about where my depression is trending.
Always Keep Fighting.
Please Help me Publish my Memoir
I have finished the first draft of my memoir “The Bipolar Writer,” and I have decided to go down the self-publishing route. If you can donate anything towards my goal, it would mean the world to me. Those that give will get a special mention in my memoir on a page dedicated to those that made my memoir possible. Thank you in advance!