It’s okay if all you did today was survive.
The other day I had one of those days. I couldn’t focus. I had trouble getting out of bed. The need to be productive was just not there for me. I could tell in that moment when I opened my eyes that this day would be one of those days I hate.
Then I realized. Some days you just survive.
I had a choice. Try and force myself to do things and feel worse or just survive the day. I chose to survive. I stayed in bed for a hour after waking. I have been working on getting my new sleep schedule, but it didn’t work this day. Not every day will be a perfect day. Most days I get through just fine.
At first I started to be really hard on myself.
How could I let myself get this way after such great production? Depression and anxiety was fighting with one another and I felt if I let things go too far, it would not end well. For those first few hours I was down on myself. But realized something. No matter how things go, there will be days when you have no choice but to survive this mental illness life.
I have to give myself a break. I took the day off. I finished off one of my audiobooks. I listened to music. I binge watched some episodes of Dark Angel, my all time favorite show. My mental health was better for it.
If all you did was survive today, give yourself a break.
I woke up the next day at my regularly scheduled time, and while things are never perfect, life continues on.
Always keep fighting.