When You Don’t Feel Like Blogging Anymore

Depression— It Makes You Want to Quit. DON’T

Lately, I have seen many of my fellow bloggers in the mental illness community think about giving up their blog. You are not alone in this, even the best writers feel overwhelmed at the best of times. Mental illness can make blogging seem impossible at times. When mental illness slows you down, it may feel as if writing is impossible. I can feel as if you are standing alone in this world— this mental illness life.

We have all been there at one time or another.

I know the feeling because there have been times in the last couple of weeks where I have thought about giving up my blog. I have never had the level of success on my blog that I have received since starting The Bipolar Writer blog back in September.

I knew going into this that my content will always be moving forward, but I can admit April was perhaps my worst month since starting this blog. I didn’t write nearly as much original content that I wanted. At one point I thought that I had run out of real ideas, and I think that is where many of my fellow bloggers are at in their journey.

Many of us, especially those whose lives revolve around their mental illness, can find it hard to do the day-to-day upkeep of a blog. I thought at the start of the year that I would write posts daily, and that worked for the first month or two. Then I hit my first rough patch of depression in March. I got better, but then again in April I found myself in the clutches of my depression.

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I thought about giving up. I mean I had said so much over the past six months I could walk away. I realized I was giving into the depression. Giving into the stigma that we all fight on a daily basis. I thought about focusing on my memoir and letting go of all I have worked on with this blog.

Then I realized that if I quit— my depression and familiar companion— would win. I never want depression to win.

Writing my blog is the most therapeutic thing I have done in this life. I wouldn’t be able to help people by sharing my daily struggles with being Bipolar. I would never again share the stories of my fellow mental illness bloggers which always makes me happy when I complete an interview feature blog post. I would lose the one thing that has been the reason my depression cycles don’t last weeks or even months. We can’t let depression win out.

The mental illness blogging community needs writers sharing their stories and their journey. If you are feeling like giving up, then just walk away for a few days. I did, and it helped. If it means writing one or two blogs a week do that so that you find some rhythm. We have to keep fighting together because no one else will end the stigma that surrounds mental illness. I promise you it will be worth it, let’s fight this feeling.

James

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54 Replies to “When You Don’t Feel Like Blogging Anymore”

  1. This came at a really necessary time for me. Thank you. Im going to continue to trust in my journey.

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  2. I’m there right now. I blogged for two months and now nothing for a couple weeks. Thank you for writing this

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  3. Hmmm. Insightful. I’m the exact opposite. When I’m happy, I feel like my muse has left me. I don’t write. It’s when the depression and anger come to the surface that I write, and typically with the clearest, though most fragmented, parts of my mind. Passion escapes without regard for being dignified. Quite the opposition we are in. Thoughts?

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    1. That actually makes sense. I am not saying I don’t feel more creative when I am happy. My best work has been while I am depressed. My point was more to keep writing when you are down

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      1. Don’t forget though, also write when you are up. I’m feeling pretty good today after a week of deep anger and depression—today I just want to feel the breeze and listen to music, but do people want to hear about that? From PinkStarburstAnxiety?

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      2. Ugh. I feel like my music might be offensive to some—though I do share some of my sunnier finds and juxtapose them with a little poetry/prose.

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  4. April was just a crap month… I thought about quitting to… it is a lot of work producing new content day in and day out… It is almost like a drug… but just like with drugs… we all reach a peak… sometimes the best thing is to step back for a minute… recharge… withdraw in a sense… unlike drugs though… writing is all about the relapse…

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  5. So true! Beautiful written ❤ This also relates to me and having anxiety. Blogging is hard work but also so awesome. Writing is really so therapeutic and I really love it so much ❤ Sometimes it’s great to take a break 👏

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    1. It is. I learned recently I don’t have to write everyday. I have enough content on my blog for people to still find it effective. At the same time I want the mental illness blogging community to know we all get to that point but it’s important to keep fighting.

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  6. This made me cry – I’ve been having a hard time with my blog. It’s tough taking a risk and writing about something so personal, then nobody notices. Thanks for the encouragement.

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    1. I’ve been there, and I understand. I got lucky with my current blog but I gave up on two other blogs over the last few years. Keep sharing and just writing. People will notice.

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  7. This post is too touchy!! I love it.. I had been also through this phase.. it sometimes feels that no one likes my post, why I am writing my blog for.. than I realized that its not fir the likes or comments that I am writing for.. its for me nt for anyone else. Its for the love of writing. Its because I wanted to ventilate my thoughts.. writing makes me feel ..it gives me wings!!!.. the blog is only dedicated to the love of writing.. and for you please keep writing.. your doing a great job 👍👍

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  8. Unfortunately this happens with everyone. I think even with writers without mental illness. My problem is not that I run out of ideas to write about because my brain is always moving and going too fast in too many different directions. My problem is that I can’t keep my brain and thoughts organized enough. My problem is also that I doubt myself too much. I feel like people do not like my writing enough etc. Instead of not having enough material, I have too much, too fast, too often and find it may not be good enough. Anyway, you are not alone. You will get fired up again Your brain just needed a little rest. You are awesome. I just wanted to throw an idea at you. I am working on a campaign for the month of May as it is Mental Health Awareness Month in May so I am doing two campaigns. One I was hoping you would want to join and participate in. If you can’t do it I completely understand, but really wanted to ask you. I know you would be an amazing additon and would help my cause tremendously. I was also wondering if I could share my post on your blog (maybe?) if you thought my post was okay. Hopefully, you will have time to check it out… I was wondering and hoping you would be interested in sharing your story to include as part of my mental health campaign to increase awareness and end stigma. I would really like to read your story and know it would be a fabulous addition to my feature. Here is a link that explains it – https://myloudbipolarwhispers.com/2018/05/01/i-need-you-please-help-me-with-my-new-project-our-story-is-our-glory/  You don’t have to participate, if you are not comfortable or too busy etc. No pressure and no rush. Your story can be one you wrote before or as long or short as you would like. Thank you and have a fabulous day. Much love and hugs, Sue

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  9. Dear James:Thank you for your candor and perspective. I too have not yet met with the success I had hoped for in blogging. It is a process I know, but I fully understand how strength is required to keep on going.
    People like you had the courage to continue when there was no evidence supporting their beliefs, but with effort and an unconquerable spirit, they did marvelous things, Like discover America, Create A Free Nation, Fly and many more.
    The point is, this world is the richer for what you contribute, and I thank you for being. I needed your words today.

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    1. I appreciate the kind words. I think at some level I get to caught up in “stats” and less in what made this blog what it has been. It happens. I just have to keep writing. It’s what I do best.

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  10. Thank you for this inspiring blog. I’m sure it has helped and will help many people. I’m in awe of the benefits that blogging, and the blogging community, can bring for people with mental illness, and you’ve just demonstrated this once more. I know you’re not old, but even so you might like to do our survey of older bloggers — you’ll find a link on my blog (naturally). Hang in there.

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