The Start of Something New

My move is official, and I am into my new house. It is a chance for me to reset the clock on my life. It was time for something good and change. I think it will be helpful for my anxiety. One significant life-changing thing this week– the move. Then at the end of this week, I will be completing the primary goal since starting my recovery journey that I have been working on over the past four years.

I will be the first to graduate with my bachelor’s degree in my family.

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As I start this new stage of my life, a chance for something new, I wanted to reflect on how things have gone since 2010. I remember it still as if it was yesterday. I was laying in a hospital bed, the second time in two weeks. The first hospital visit was a suicide attempt where I came close to dying. I spend three days in a coma because of an overdose. If I am honest, I didn’t believe that I would wake up. I am happy to be living my life right at this moment.

It was in the second hospital visits after several seizures that I reflected on the path my life had taken from 2006-2010. It had been a life of chaos. I wanted stability. It was the first time in my life that I admitted that my life was falling apart– and I finally said “I am Bipolar” for the first time since my diagnosis in 2007.

It was there that my life started to change. I realized at that moment that for some reason, despite trying so hard, that there was something bigger going on in my life. Against the odds, according to my doctors, I survived– barely.

It has never been easy. Every day I struggle to find the balance between my life and my mental illness life. The lines are blurry between the two worlds. Since that moment I have been happy. I have been sad. I have been through depression cycles both long and short. I developed social anxiety, lived through the worst insomnia, and found a place in this world where I belong– like becoming a mental health advocate.

Just in the four years that I decided to go back to school and get my degree in creative writing so much has happened in my life. The good always outweighs the bad. I went through bleeding ulcers last year– I survived. There were so many times that giving up seemed like the perfect option– but I persevered.

I have written my memoir which has been my most significant achievement. I wrote a screenplay that featured a character that was Bipolar, and the novel version is close to completion. My favorite thing in the last four years is creating The Bipolar Writer blog and coming up with my psydonym– James Edgar Skye.

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My blog has become a place of solace and where I can be myself. Sharing my journey with you has been the highest part of my day.

My upcoming achievement is a testament that even with a mental illness you can overcome and do great things.  We can fight. I can fight. Always keep fighting because we can’t let mental illness win.

I offer this last thing before ending this blog post. Together we can fight the stigma surrounding mental illness. I challenge you to write your story. Collaborate with other mental health writers and advocates. Life is too short to let mental illness win. Above all work on your mental health first.

James

P.S. Its time to open a bottle of Jameson to celebrate this coming weekend.

Please Help me Publish my Memoir

I have finished the first draft of my memoir “The Bipolar Writer,” and I have decided to go down the self-publishing route. If you can donate anything towards my goal, it would mean the world to me. Those that give will get a special mention in my memoir on a page dedicated to those that made my memoir possible. Thank you in advance!

$5.00

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26 Replies to “The Start of Something New”

  1. Congratulations on attaining your degree! And even more-so, congratulations on fighting for life. I don’t think that keeping people alive at all costs is the best path. But I do believe that there is no greater gift than seeing people choose to engage in their live despite the hardship life can bring. Is living easy, and always satisfying? No. But for those of us that push on every day, the reward of contentment and acceptance are so incredible. Keep it up!

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  2. I wish you all the luck and strength in the world 💪❤️ You made such a progress in all these years. We are all in this together. Congratulations for your degree and all your achievements 🎉I’m so proud of you! You are an amazing writer and I know you will do great things in life.

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      1. I was only asking to make sure you still have support. I worry about my fellow mental health bloggers. It is expensive living anywhere on your own. Congrats on your new place. I hope you make beautiful memories there.

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      2. Thank you for looking out for me! I am not at the point in mental health to be alone. I will make beautiful memories Eve!! Thank you for always following my blog!

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  3. Very inspiring! You are a warrior and you’ve done wonderful efforts ! Keep going ! I suffer from Epilepsy ; i’m 18 and it’s been 4 years now . I know it’s not mental but i find it so hard to communicate with my parents and friends and let them understand my struggles . Thank you for sharing !

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  4. Hello James. Regarding your memoir, have you looked at CreateSpace? I only just found out about it, so I don’t know much, but it looks interesting.

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  5. YES!!! you are so right!! At my lowest I discovered a different side of me that I never knew existed

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