When Mania, Depression, & Creativity Collide

There was a moment this week that will help me define future episodes with mixed cycling mania and depression episodes.

Can Creativity Happen When Mania and Depression Hit?

It has been an exciting week for me both as a writer, being a human being, and someone who is manic-depressant. I have been able to write and be active this week, but not at the level I would like to be at some days. In the past, my creativity has always taken a backseat to my depression especially winter months, but I am always striving during the summer. I recently have had a great look at what happens when my creativity collides with my manic-depressive side— which has given me insight into my creativity during this time.

Entering into August my creativity has been at its highest levels over the past three months. It was the right choice to take the summer off before starting my master’s program because I have found my creative side that was missing for a while. I have been writing new content and it has helped grow my blog along with my collaborative writers (which has made The Bipolar Writer a true mental health collaborative blog.) I have felt really great to be moving towards publishing my memoir.

Life is good, but there will always be days.

I have an easier time being proactive during the summer months, and it is easier to not let my depression keep me from my goals. To be honest, I have achieved a lot this summer, and as I draw near putting my memoir together for publishing, I feel great. My blog is growing, and it has been a good almost year since starting The Bipolar Writer blog. Still, I have seen what happens when my creativity and being manic-depressant can make for some weird times in my life in recent weeks.despo-potamou-4189-unsplash.jpg

The past few weeks have been a struggle with my growing mania, but I have also been cycling between mania and depression. It means my creativity is really great when I am manic, which I have been in an increase in writing new original content for my blog. I have continued to focus on my memoir. At the same time, there are days like this past Saturday where I feel less creative. I have experienced some differing emotions in my weeks recently where things are good one moment and sad the next. This is my mixed cycling episodes (mania and depression) that I often see in the summer months.

My creativity has been excellent. I wish at times that writing every day can be a reality, but there are days where it is impossible. I have to take a step back and realize that life cannot always be reaching perfection. I have this issue where I think everything must be perfect, but it rarely is that way. There will be days where you just lay in your P.J.’s all day and lose productivity. When I look at my whole week, I was very productive, so I am learning to not be so hard on myself. It is not worth it!koushik-chowdavarapu-682187-unsplash.jpg

As I go forward this week, I will continue to work towards productive days and the day or two where I can relax. I know I have a busy week and I hope to stop cycling between depression and mania so that I can find some balance. The good thing is seeing my psychiatrist this week which should help me with finding out if changes will be made in my medications.

I will keep writing about my summer mania and depression this week. It’s great to talk about and share with my blog! Stay strong.

Always Keep Fighting!

James Edgar Skye

Please Help me Publish my Memoir

I am almost done editing my memoir “The Bipolar Writer,” and I have decided to go down the self-publishing route. If you can donate anything towards my goal, it would mean the world to me. I am still working towards enough to pay an artist for a good cover. Those that donate will get a special mention in my memoir on a page dedicated to those that made my memoir possible. Thank you in advance!

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Koushik Chowdavarapu

Koushik Chowdavarapu

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19 Replies to “When Mania, Depression, & Creativity Collide”

  1. I really appreciated this, given that I was just kicking myself for not pushing much original content these last couple of days. And I don’t need to do that.

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  2. Your honest writing is informative, yet comforting to me. (I’m usually, often embarrassingly, all over the place creatively, but I try to just follow it without regard to who may get tired of my turns. They can simply get off the ride if it becomes too much. Wish I could sometimes.) I’m rooting for you.

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  3. that’s how mania usually works, you feel that overwhelming sense of wellbeing, like you’re, on top of the world, that nothing can get to you, and yet, the higher you get, the more impact the depressive cycles will hit you, beacuse by allowing ourselves to experience our mania to their highest extent, we’re, unknowingly, setting ourselves up, for the lowest of lows, the point of managing our bipolar disorder, is try to keep everything leveled, and in the middle, without too much highs, and too much lows.

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  4. I hope you do get your memoir published! My creativity has been really high lately too due to hypomania, but with it has come a lot of anxiety and irritability, which is the norm for me. I can also get obsessive about “results” at times like these and frustrated if I feel like I’m not living up to my own expectations, which are honestly probably too high to begin with most of the time. Are you a perfectionist at all too?

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    1. Yes! I deal a lot with that though I am getting better at not going to far with b I got a perfectionist. I am especially that way with my school work. Everything has to be perfect all the time and it gets me into trouble at times.

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  5. Hello, I am new to the conversation. I just want to say that I like what I’ve read and I look forward to reading more. I did notice you worried about not producing enough original material and I want to say don’t get blogged down in all that if you can help it. Ok…I mostly wanted to say it because I wanted to make a corny joke because that is what i do when I’m new [ok, all the time].) I know it is hard not to write for the numbers. I like likes as much as anybody, but we have to stay grounded, right? (She says after she checks her stats.)
    Anyway, I am very happy to meet you, James Edgar Skye. I feel like I can learn a lot from you and your cohorts(if I can stop talking:+)

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    1. It’s great to meet you and I am glad you found my blog. I tend to worry about my content at times way too much. I have found that things tend to work out if you just write to write. That is how I started this blog, but I will admit I got used to stat watching for a few months this year. All I cared about was the numbers and I realized I wasn’t writing good content again. I took a step back and now I am back to writing to write good content. The numbers are just that numbers. Still at times I get caught up in a good week or when I hit a new level of blog followers. I like to celebrate those things because it feels great to bring people together! Thank you for this comment because sometimes I forget it’s about more than the number.

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  6. Nice post James, ya I get chotup in perfection with things I do as well and have to take a step back and tell myself it doesn’t have to be perfect just get it done.

    ❤️✌️
    BY FOR NOW

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  7. As a nusician with bipoar, ptsd and personality disorders. I range in the spectrum of my manic episodes and depression episodes. However i find that writing music is great in lowest moods, yet when it comes to manic moments its a habit to play more as beinng on stage gives a chance for ego part to move on . I appreciated this post and shared my thoughts on it

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    1. Thank you for sharing. It’s an interesting thing because what I have found is everyone is a little bit different but the same thing is always true, Creativity is a part it all.

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