There was a moment this week that will help me define future episodes with mixed cycling mania and depression episodes.
Can Creativity Happen When Mania and Depression Hit?
It has been an exciting week for me both as a writer, being a human being, and someone who is manic-depressant. I have been able to write and be active this week, but not at the level I would like to be at some days. In the past, my creativity has always taken a backseat to my depression especially winter months, but I am always striving during the summer. I recently have had a great look at what happens when my creativity collides with my manic-depressive side— which has given me insight into my creativity during this time.
Entering into August my creativity has been at its highest levels over the past three months. It was the right choice to take the summer off before starting my master’s program because I have found my creative side that was missing for a while. I have been writing new content and it has helped grow my blog along with my collaborative writers (which has made The Bipolar Writer a true mental health collaborative blog.) I have felt really great to be moving towards publishing my memoir.
Life is good, but there will always be days.
I have an easier time being proactive during the summer months, and it is easier to not let my depression keep me from my goals. To be honest, I have achieved a lot this summer, and as I draw near putting my memoir together for publishing, I feel great. My blog is growing, and it has been a good almost year since starting The Bipolar Writer blog. Still, I have seen what happens when my creativity and being manic-depressant can make for some weird times in my life in recent weeks.
The past few weeks have been a struggle with my growing mania, but I have also been cycling between mania and depression. It means my creativity is really great when I am manic, which I have been in an increase in writing new original content for my blog. I have continued to focus on my memoir. At the same time, there are days like this past Saturday where I feel less creative. I have experienced some differing emotions in my weeks recently where things are good one moment and sad the next. This is my mixed cycling episodes (mania and depression) that I often see in the summer months.
My creativity has been excellent. I wish at times that writing every day can be a reality, but there are days where it is impossible. I have to take a step back and realize that life cannot always be reaching perfection. I have this issue where I think everything must be perfect, but it rarely is that way. There will be days where you just lay in your P.J.’s all day and lose productivity. When I look at my whole week, I was very productive, so I am learning to not be so hard on myself. It is not worth it!
As I go forward this week, I will continue to work towards productive days and the day or two where I can relax. I know I have a busy week and I hope to stop cycling between depression and mania so that I can find some balance. The good thing is seeing my psychiatrist this week which should help me with finding out if changes will be made in my medications.
I will keep writing about my summer mania and depression this week. It’s great to talk about and share with my blog! Stay strong.
Always Keep Fighting!
James Edgar Skye
Please Help me Publish my Memoir
I am almost done editing my memoir “The Bipolar Writer,” and I have decided to go down the self-publishing route. If you can donate anything towards my goal, it would mean the world to me. I am still working towards enough to pay an artist for a good cover. Those that donate will get a special mention in my memoir on a page dedicated to those that made my memoir possible. Thank you in advance!