I write to share my story openly and honestly about living, surviving and thriving with Bipolar 1 Disorder to increase awareness, educate, reduce stigma, prevent suicide, inspire, give hope and let God's love shine through me and touch you. I have given many presentations to share my story, inspire others, increase awareness, educate and reduce the stigma of mental illness and suicide. I have given presentations at a local University, spoken as a certified NAMI presenter and spoke to police officers and social workers for their Crisis Intervention Training. I have also been interviewed by our local newspaper and news station to share my story. I finished writing my first, very rough draft of my memoir in November. I need to add more to it and edit it a lot. It is a work in progress, but I pray one day it will be completed and I will get it published one way or another. God has saved my life numerous times. He is always with me through all my struggles, holding my hand and catching my tears. There is always hope and recovery is possible. I am living proof of that. When you have hope, you have life. "There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." ~Maya Angelou

Bipolar Disorder is Part of My Mental Illness Life but It is Not My Life

A few days ago I wrote a post titled “You Don’t Have Bipolar Disorder” which are the words my new psychiatrist told me after seeing me three times. He also told me … Continue reading Bipolar Disorder is Part of My Mental Illness Life but It is Not My Life

How Having Bipolar Disorder is Like Running a Marathon

I wrote this about a year and a half ago. I hope it helps you better understand what it’s like to live with bipolar 1 disorder with ultradian rapid cycling … Continue reading How Having Bipolar Disorder is Like Running a Marathon

Father’s Day Triggers My PTSD

I started writing this post on Father’s Day. I couldn’t finish it and went back to it a few times. I thought of deleting it many times because it is … Continue reading Father’s Day Triggers My PTSD

I Left My Anxiety in the Dust—a Poem

My brain matter does often scatter throughout my brain unable to drain unnecessary clutter that makes me shutter. My body trembles from my head to my toes filling me with … Continue reading I Left My Anxiety in the Dust—a Poem

Tears of Stigma—Listen to Our Cries

Cancer they empathize, but don’t hear my cries. Heart disease they empathize, but won’t see my cries. Diabetes they empathize. but hide from my cries. Even the flu they empathize, … Continue reading Tears of Stigma—Listen to Our Cries

The Mental Illness Box

When I was a very young child, my brain and mind were free and open to see and create beautiful visions for my life. I had a lifetime to make … Continue reading The Mental Illness Box

The Grieving Process of My Bipolar Disorder Diagnosis

After my diagnosis of bipolar disorder, it took me many years before I fully accepted I had this life-changing mental illness. The first step in any recovery is acceptance. I realized I had … Continue reading The Grieving Process of My Bipolar Disorder Diagnosis

We Need to Talk About ALL Deaths by Suicide—Not Just When Celebrities Die by Suicide

I am saddened by the two celebrities, Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain, that died by suicide last week. However, I am glad it has increased the discussion about mental illness … Continue reading We Need to Talk About ALL Deaths by Suicide—Not Just When Celebrities Die by Suicide

What’s Behind a Smile?

On a news report after the suicide of Kate Spade her friend said, “The Kate I knew always had a smile on her face.” A smile can be an illusion. … Continue reading What’s Behind a Smile?

Stigma – A Skewed Perception

Many people have a skewed perception of what mental illness is. This skewed perception comes from people making generalized and uneducated statements about mental illness. Negative terms are used to describe or … Continue reading Stigma – A Skewed Perception