This morning I had my first panic attack in my car in almost six months. If you have been following the recent string of blog posts, you know that I am struggling with cycling mania and depression, and now social anxiety all at once. Today I got into my car today with the hope of getting some errands done. I knew getting into my car that my anxiety was high, and it didn’t help that I didn’t sleep last night.
I envy the fantastic bloggers who use their real names because they can be true to themselves, but I have found the same level of success writing anonymously or with a pseudonym.
“My loud b;polar roars fear, anger and sorrow and whispers hope, inspiration and love at the same time.” ~written by Susan Walz If you ever wondered about the meaning behind the … Continue reading How My Loud Bipolar Whispers (with a music video)
Right off the top: I am absolutely thrilled to be here. To be in the company of such strong and inspiring people is truly a gift. I hope I can … Continue reading Don’t Feed the Reaper
I have been so serious lately with writing my blog. I have shared my struggles and my love for writing. My fellow mental illness community bloggers have seen the best … Continue reading The Bipolar Writer’s Top 10 Favorites Lists Pt. 1
I always have a good working list of topics I want to discuss on The Bipolar Writer blog. Often some of my blog posts are random thoughts that pop into … Continue reading What Topics Should I Write in August?
it was always an ideal to me mental illness was a theory, a concept of something tragic that could never touch someone like me because girls with dimpled smiles and … Continue reading Masquerade
My list of mental illness labels is a long one. I have been diagnosed with postpartum depression, bipolar 1 disorder with rapid cycling and mixed episodes, PTSD, generalized anxiety disorder … Continue reading Mental Illness Labels
It is a great feeling to reach another milestone for The Bipolar Writer blog– 7,000 Followers.
This week I am featuring somewhat of a repeat of a post I have done before on The Bipolar Writer– my obsession with Korean Pop group Girls Generation (I listen to a lot of K-pop, but they are my favorite.) I have been obsessed for years with Korean and Japanese culture, and music really is what gets me through so much in this mental illness life. So here are some of my favorite songs, straight from my K-pop playlist on iTunes music.
When things are going good, usually in the first few months of an antidepressant change, I always feel as if this is the one that I can stick with and take in the long run! Then reality starts to hit. In the early years of my diagnosis I cared little about life, and when my antidepressants failed to work, it was my mother and my psychiatrist that made the decisions to change my antidepressants.
Fear has caused me to avoid certain situations, like long lines in the grocery store. I feared a panic attack and being stuck with no way out. Trapped. With therapy … Continue reading When Fear Cleared I Found Anger