I often like to imagine that if I do not discuss my mental illnesses they will fade away. Out of sight, out of mind. Such isn’t reality. Living daily with … Continue reading The Boiler Within
Today. A day of prevention I must mention. Raised voices chant. Families grieve for their loss. The suffering hide in silence. A world unites to claim a day in honor … Continue reading Today, September 10th
What do you do when the silent space of your mind decides it wants to be heard? Screaming in echoed holler, I hear the vibration of words. Muffeled and stifled … Continue reading Listening
Words clutter my mind. It seems they duel it out until one wins. As of late, I have done “brain dumps” before bed. I grab my travel notebook, write the … Continue reading Me. OCD.
What is to come of a life doused in confusion? The flammability of kerosene will destroy with one strike Tasting the sulfur curiosity engulfs me As do the flames of … Continue reading Flames of Life
If you have been following my blog, you know that I have been working since November of 2017 on my memoir. All the money donated since that time has been put into a fund to pay the artist that is creating a cover so I can self-publish. Every cent that I have is going for that purpose.
In previous days I often discussed finding the light. The light that would lead me out of my darkness. I would hold on to the glimmer I could see but … Continue reading Finding the Light
Manic she creates Challenging its fate Teasing it She flexes Check’n it She mocks it While multitasking It’s only from up here she sees the depths she has visited A … Continue reading Mania
1, 2, 3, 4 She can’t take much more. Finding herself on the floor. She fights with life. Angry and mistreated, Defeated. Liquor brings reprieve. Herself she deceive. Addicted without … Continue reading Defeated
Sometimes I don’t know what it’s like to be me. Imposter syndrome or disassociation? Imposter syndrome or disassociation? “Who Am I?” Often, I question. Ignited by madness. Fueled through love. … Continue reading 3 am
2 am Haven’t eaten today Well, yesterday Sleep escapes me My energy levels are elevated But not enough to move As I lay here, scrolling, I wonder Is anybody out … Continue reading Is Anybody Out There?
Being bipolar can be maddening. The ever so daunting thoughts. The indecision. The opposing poles. Constant doubt. Add the fear of judgment (anxiety) and obsessive patterns (OCD) to the mix … Continue reading My Personal Account